Explorer Jack recently asked me if I missed blogging or was it a relief to be away from the burden of always having to post. Hmmmmm. I'm not sure!
Stepping back from the blog, I came to realize what a curious exercise writing a personal blog really is, at least the way I do it. Isn't it really odd, revealing my thoughts, fears and the most intimate details of my life to thousands of casual readers all over the world?
Although I now have six or more people in my town whom I confide about most of these things, only readers of my blog hear every sordid detail. lol
Did I miss blogging? Yes, terribly! As I continue to push beyond my comfort level regarding gay sex and relationships, I miss the opportunity to reflect on what was going on as I wrote each post. I also regret not making a blog record of my recent adventures.
Most importantly, I missed the opportunity to receive feedback, comments and invaluable advice from friends (some of whom I've met) and experienced gay men from around the world. From a distance, my blog reader friends were able to cut through my confusion and inexperience and offer an objective perspective on my latest gay adventure.
Having said all that, it was a bit of a relief not to have to blog on every second or third day. The problem wasn't a shortage of gay stories to write about, that's for sure. I take a great deal of time with each post, carefully crafting the story and (as a teacher), striving for perfect organization, spelling and grammar, and then severely editing each post to condense it as much as possible.
Sometimes, I spend more time getting the perfect man pics to accompany the blog post than it took to write the post itself.
My decision: I intend to continue my blog as before, posting every second or third day.
My problem with blogging will happen when I meet "Mr. Right" or at least a man who MIGHT be Mr. Right. At that point, I cannot imagine posting about a relationship which is just developing; it would be like inviting dozens of people into an intimate twosome..... a betrayal, of sorts.
Yet, if I did embark on a dating relationship and did NOT blog about it, my blog would not be as honest account as it is now. I would not be able to write about a huge, important part of my life and my account would be full of holes. Hmmmmm ....... tricky!
I'll cross that bridge when I come to it!